Today I’m feeling fake strong. While I know I’m not where I need to be, for today at least, I feel like I can handle what comes my way.
I’m not a perfect person, but I honestly wouldn’t want to be. I am of the mindset that our quirks and flaws make us. That’s not to say that we shouldn’t continuously strive for self-improvement. It just means there is nothing wrong with accepting where we’re at currently. After all, this self-acceptance is what eventually leads to the understanding we need to make the changes we desire. The difference is in beating yourself up a little less along the way.
On a typical day, I might wonder what was wrong with ME if things aren’t going the way I had hoped or expected, but today I can see that there’s nothing wrong with me. I am loving. I am kind. I am loyal. I am honest. I am fun and adventurous. I am constantly curious about life. I don’t cause drama for the sake of it. I try my best to give people what they want and need. I’m part basic, white bitch – come at me pumpkin spice, fall weather, and vintage-look décor – and part awkward, endearing weirdo.
Do I fail sometimes, make mistakes? Yes. Do I get overwhelmed and stressed out at times? Absolutely. I’m sure you could peek into my past and find a person or two who wouldn’t agree with these declarations. And you know what? They might be right. Sometimes as we grow and learn in life, we inadvertently hurt the people we love. Sometimes certain people bring out the best or worst in us. Sometimes we’re just not 100% in the right frame of mind, and we could use a little help and support of our own.
But I can’t change the past. It’s the long run I aim to, and in the long run, I support and love unconditionally, whoever you are to me. I have spent too much time in my own head already.
“Don’t feel bad if you’re single. It just means you’re the best song on the album.”